rahsia yang dah bukan rahsia.;p

I'm bad in making new friends in new environment.huh. :(

this is the truth.
for the first one week, i'll be like forever alone.siryes.
SMKDB.
MRSMKP.
UITMKP.

yes.true story.whoever know me after that one week of 'lag phase' will say, ' eh tak pernah nampak pun sebelum ni?' 'tak pernah jumpa pun masa orientasi?'
haha. yeah.selalunya minggu pertama tu aku ambil masa nak adapt dgn persekitaran, dan meng-observe.hihi.

bukanlah kate tak ada kawan langsung kan time 1st week,ade je,tp, i dont know how to keep the frenship going.at the first one week, kejap aku g dgn si A, esoknya, aku g makan dgn org B, tuptup esok aku sorg je.haha.
so, thats my life so far bila get in to new environment.

eh,kenapa tetiber aku pecahkan 'rahsia' ni?haha.
sebab i'll be enter-ing such a new environment soon.so, sejarah yang lepas-lepas tu ter-replay automatically dalam minda.and i'm afraid.
i've got no confidence to change it, either to go through it again.
sigh. i want a change.really.
for how long i need to live like this?
or do i not really need a change?


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ok.despite those forever alone moment, the ending of it(bukan habis seminggu tu.hihi) was really AWESOME! sampaikan aku kadang terlupa how hard it is at first.
dan rasanya, aku patut bersyukur kan? apelah aku nih.haiiiihh.
k.rasenya tu je kot nak citer.
sebab aku dah lama sangat pendam.haha.k abaikan.

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aku rasa masalah aku is tak kenal diri sendiri.herm.